People suck.
Until today, I thought SLP was a relatively tolerant high school. I have lots of GLBT friends/acquaintances and they all seem conformable being out.
But I need to express my dissatisfaction with the world today. I was passing out a survey for the gay/straight alliance (see the 'straight' in that name? that's me), and people decided it was acceptable to heckle me.
I'm not sure how it happened, but at some point, the proper response to "would you like to fill out a survey?" moved from "yes" or "no thanks" to "faggot! faggot!" Extra points if you throw food or make sexual gestures. One table wasted at least ten minutes setting up a simulated sex scene for me to see when I walked back around to pick up the surveys. They even had props.
I know they were just trying to bother me, and I would have confronted them if there had been anyone else from the GSA in the lunchroom with me. The nice part was, even though they wouldn't take the survey, I pretty much figured out their position.
The whole experience made me appreciate just how much our school needs a GSA. If a straight girl passing out surveys about tolerance can get that kind of crap, what's going to happen if someone comes out to them?

2006. I never thought this year would actually come.

I've never planned much further than the end of this year. Sure, I have huge goals for college, but past that I don't have any goals about life. I have a few years to figure it out, but then I have to have some life plan. Do I want to get married? Have kids? Live in LA? Live in NY? It's like MASH. (Which, strangely, says that I'm going to marry Chinh and live in a shack with 4 kids).

I'm done with all my applications, and I sent my portfolio out yesterday. I'll post a link to it someday. I'm not worried about getting into college, because I'm already accepted at two places. The rest are questionable, but even if I get rejections from here out, I have somewhere to go. That's a good feeling. I also love having "strong academics." I never thought that I'd be Ivy League material, but I was in the top of their midrange for almost everything. Amazing.

I hate the idea of leaving my friends. I wish I could take everyone with me (some people more than others). I want to continue going to high school forever. I'd like to get up later, stop living with my parents and take design classes, but other than that I'm happy with the status quo. On the other hand, I am completely ready for the senior slide.

I do need to congratulate my mother for choosing the absolute worst time to file for divorce. While I should be studying for finals and figuring out college financial aide, I'm reading Minnesota statute to figure out youth rights and trying to determine how I can tell the FAFSA people that yes, we have money, but that soon it's going to be supporting two separate households.